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then, there was the positive stuff I did and experienced to cope with the absurdly horrific stuff I had in my mind through the Satanic presence from the state hospital pertinent to the clamped catheter TORTURE in 1986.

I read the BIBLE twice cover twice cover to cover. The first time was rote; but it prepared me for the second, which took six years. A paragraph or chapter at a time, on a plan in the NLT New Believers Bible. It was so thrilling to my soul as well as my intellect.

well before that, I rescued a baby squirrel from sure death in my mother’s casual care. i built a large wooden and wire mesh cage for it complete with doors and contraptions to jump and play on, I don’t remember now, it’s been a long time, it was about 4 foot by 3 foot by 3 foot and took a lot of work but was a lot of fun. My parents kept it for years and it was used for a lot of pet and animal rescue needs over the years.

Things like this soothed my heart, mind, and soul from the ill work that was going in my mind that I couldn’t stop from the presence of the history of abortion and the sick, prior presence of autoeroticism. All of this started playing themselves out in the abnormal manifestations that started in Florida that I described in my last post and other ways that I may or may not wish to reveal in a further post.

For now I am continent that I have gotten this stuff out in sure moral order where it has been festering for years all ill-attached and misunderstood.