nccotus

this is my witness to how I was ultimately saved.

I came to faith through the back door.

for the longest time, I was actively seeking in desperation because of a Satanic presence that I picked up here in the City of Reading in 1986; because of the clamped catheter incident that all but took my life; the “ghoul epiphany” which I do now embrace. (See my recent posting in this regard, it was about retroactive presence of abortion.)

I finally turned to God in Florida in 2003 for help with a related “autoerotic” habit (yes in other words masturbation or something like that) but turned to Him in a sick erroneous way that I didn’t understand as such at the time. I turned to a cloud in my mind to receive the sick energy in my mind and thought it well. And never did it again, maybe 20 times after that. I went to a psych ward shortly afterward after reading the passage in the Bible about the lascivious woman whom the lord threatened to cut off her ears and nose for her sexual behaviour. It was a long long passage and very frightening. I didn’t realize how badly I had angered the Lord. I didn’t connect what happened afterward but now I have. I have been moved through penance, cleansing, and atonement ever since.

first, the illusion of poking people up the ass in the supermarket line and things like this. I just wanted to die. That was confined to South Florida.

the serious GI issue for FIFTEEN YEARS.

PSYCHOTIC BUG PHOBIA AND a couple of real infestations to confuse things. I was in abject terror for about 7 years. More on this…

Lord, thy rod and thy staff they comfort me…