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I finally realized that all this bitter pain and confusion since 2018 has been about about my brothers suicide and the uncertainty surrounding it, followed by my mother’s untimely demise. I got so crazy!!! it came to be about ALIENS!!! sort of like the Irishman in that UK film back in the 90s who fell…
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I generally forget now about the “wart-mole” taken out of my face–technically termed a “lesion” to the right of my nose. for two years I went through a conscious adjustment and then forgot about it. I assumed that beauty would follow in the end. instead my worst fears were answered. I took a look at…
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My patent Christian faith was found recently in a passage from John: John 20: 31: “But these are written so that you may believe that Jesus is the Christ, the Son of God, and that by believing you may have life in his name.” In other words, Jesus’s works were astonishing even at that…
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there is pain and then there is utter derangement. they say that sleep deprivation is one of the worst forms of torture. in 2003 I went three weeks without sleep when I suddenly stopped the Zyprexa, one of the first “newer” anti-psychotic medications, because someone called me “odd.” I instantly felt better but then the…
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used to be at 200 am. I just know it. For the longest time I used to wonder about 2 am and why it scared me. a couple of weeks ago my new psych provider asked about my OCD and one thing I was able to describe was how I jumped from my bedroom door…
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Taking a day off today. This is me: after a difficult night. the power of forgiveness has carried me through to a beautiful new day. th
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Alex and I were improperly conjoined. I used to say it was like he was making love to my ear we never met properly and my family gave him such an ill impression. he used my OCD brain problem to board me sexually. we had it together for a while in Perris, CA, a house…
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re my last post about stalkers Blufko and Bre. government agents. I did not mean to reflect harm from president Trump in any way shape or form in this regard. I believe and have stated that he is a very good President. I believe that his dramatic and flamboyant style have worked to pull together…
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I have finally understood about Blufko in Harvard Square in ’84 and afterwards. He was a government agent sent there to harm me. Similarly Bre in the last few years. Blufko followed me to Berks County after I left Cambridge and saw me secreted in West Lawn with a man whose name was Mark who…
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Also from the Morris Pace Home in Reading. “Ian: loving arms to hold you. eyes to cry for you there were some terrible things happening to me at that home but there was some decent loving kindness there. i
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