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the Lamictal overdose suicide attempt in 2016 was the last throes of that nasty piece of flesh going off of me and out of me after taxing me all of my life. at the time I experienced it as the horrific thrall of the decade and a half of lower GI issues and associated paranoia…
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in the end my case will go down as one of the worst GI cases on record. started as undiagnosed eating disorder in high school. actually even in childhood I was driven to eat plates of confectioners sugar and bags full of of sugar candy purloined from the shop in town. in high school I…
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at the time I met Alex I was a student of color psychology and numerology. I had picked up a book on color psychology that my mother’s psychiatrist friend had left with her decades before and, as a former high school math prize winner and also a former state hospital patient I was free associating…
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a sleepover in 2000 led me to flee with Ian to the DV shelter n Tampa. i realize now that Alex was terrified that night. At the time I was upset and embarrassedthe the two kids were scared. one went home . RThe other stayed the night. His parents were there to pick him up…
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my son had a persistent hard on as a young kid. I figured out somewhere along the way that it was because of my persistent clitoral erection. He said why does it stick out and it was so embarrassing. I didn’t know what to say to him. I asked Hal, my psychotherapist at the time…
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About love that isn’t sexual It still proves through through sexual body parts. and mine were damaged through infant torture. persistent clitoral erections due to various incidences of pud damage starting in infancy. my son was regularly hurt and harmed in this regard. those pathways were taxed especially as I continued to be beheld to…
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because of infant torture I was weird about Love. there were two men in high school and college whom I fell so sweetly in love with but it turned to evil. I finally understand about my ex, Alex, in this regard. We were both so in love in Perris, CA—lol! A dystopic Paris honeymoon, my…
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I was bad in Allentown from the start because of a eprelationship with a local celeb whom I ran alongside of at the Berks County state hospital. She had me blindsided and took advantage. She followed me everywhere I went afterwards by always having been there ahead of me from California to Maryland to Florida…
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about the ugly “m” word my masturbation was atypical. it took a saint to relieve me of it. I call him jz. they threw me out of Hopkins for it. That and the smoking. Both were features of my illness. I was sexually damaged and used quasi-masturbation to relieve me of the persistent unpleasant clitoral…
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See my post, “startling images of aliens who may already be here.” also, “a sampling of huggable aliens.” also, “clan Chattan artwork.” it was an exquisite experience to encounter the alien who came to me on the Haven Hospital Tower Unit when I was returned from 5 days in the snow—a cleansing…
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