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an undergraduate literary magazine, They won’t let me go even after 42 years. They claim I ruined them. finally I have the gumption to stand up to this abuse. they ruined a beautiful writer. They ruined my personality. When they were through with me I could hardly speak and I was sweating profusely all of…
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a few years ago I was driving down Easton Road on the way to the hospital in Ambler PA after camping out in a parking garage overnight and I cried out “God, move Heaven and earth to save Ian!” And that’s where I have been ever since. But I lost track of it. ultimately I…
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…on the count of 3… on horseback of course. I always used to sit on 3 at the penultimate moment. which this is. trying to resist temptation in this regard. when I look up–out here on the smoking deck–and see the trees I remember the trees out the windows at TBH 1 and 2 (psych…
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it all makes sense now. because it doesn’t. thets the point. tbe morning that she died or rather hit her head and went into a seizure or had a strone–I don’t know what really happened. I couldn’t talk. I couldn’t find any words. It was like that for weeks wben she worked as an administrative…
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i am spinning my wheels here today as I await a financial award from the Hopkins lawsuit that doesn’t seem to want to come and working on a serious bugaboo about COMPROMISE. sometimes that word means a good thing about people coming to an agreement where one is desperately warranted but generally it means something…
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it replaced a horrific fantasy life that doesn’t bear explaining that grew out of the horrific ICU sexual torture exierience.in ’86. that ghoul has finally met with Jesus and everything is changing 39 years later. Alex had me whisper elaborate soft core porn fantasies starring me. It was quite painful having to crane my neck…
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it is a very serious sin and the one sin that truly ruined my life. i quit in 2003. a voice came to my mind in 1997 in the apartment in 9th St n in St Petersburg Fla saying “Try to resist the urge to masturbate.” i thought that it was my new psychotherapist. i…
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