nccotus

Smoking is a naturally disestablishmentarian act. A smoker flouts the rules and buries the establishments.

Jesus was disestablishmentarian. The Holy Spirit is a fire.

antidisestablishmentarians are boring and dull, they hide their lights under a bushel and take down what is bold.

Native Americans used smoking to make peace, and decisions and strategies. St. Therese of Avila and lots of other saints old time and newer smoked cigarettes. A couple of recent Popes did.

the boom has to drop on those who would take out smoking altogether. It’s none of their businesses.

there are so many other ways to die than through smoking, why not come down in drinking.? It can also lead to fatalites in so many ways, and it is stinky and messy and awful. But people enjoy it.

I have learned to enjoy life without alcohol as I cannot imbibe alcohol while using the battery of medicines I take, it just doesn’t feel good, this puts me out of society. My solitary smoking is all I have. In Caifornia I saw the Devil in the lit head of my cigarette and it became an OCD issue to put it out, Like anything else, smoking cane be out of control, I also saw witchcraft in the patterns in the sheets on the bed and it terrified me. This was after the 2nd (3rd) abortion.

I have now succeeded in limiting the smoking to less than a pack a day, and I am enjoying it all to hell. But I am not sure what is going to happen if I move in to a place where I can smoke indoors or more easily. Also, Ian says he is not comfortable with my smoking. Because of past tense harm, like ear infections and the stench of 3 pack a day smoker

and it annoys and irritates him to know that I am still doing it.

I had it down to 10 cigarettes a day and I was really going to try to make that a plan but he didnt even care he said it wasn’t enough. There was no support for that radical try at this transitional time, that and showering every other day. Im still working on the showering but the smoking is back to 1 an hour, which is a little under a pack a ay. They didnt even bother with me, it was so hurtful and rude.

I am a lifelong invalid once a smokaholic life-long reader and writer always struggling desperately to be a mother but people couldn’t see that through the wall of smoke and I couldn’t get there through the smoke but i cave instantly without the meds and Im out the door instantly In a pure blind panic of pain.

it is feels like torture. It is happening right now, it gives me pure pain to type out these words as I sit here bent to the left counting in the words to come out okay although the table is at a 30 degree angle from my face and I can only just see the letter.

km now I feel better. But my neck still aches.

at the Lodge Program at Wernersville the doctor said, “Do you like being punished? Does it help you?” I didn’t have a clue what he was saying but I flew out t obthe day room.

his name was Dr, Lowry. People liked him.

Noone there liked me.

he rendered my diagnoses to be shizoaffective AND borderline. Go to a state hospital, get a lousy diagnosis. My next doctor there, a Chinese man, put in a complimentary word in a routine evaluation , about my eye contact. .I have been having trouble with my eye contact ever since,

it is the main thing that makes people acceed to the serious diagnoses of schizophrenia, it hurts every time,

so, I would fight hard to stand uo fir my rights as a smoker. It holds my dignity.