nccotus

old woes in Black world in Florida just came up to bite me here in PA, an encounter on the smoking deck. Probably a Sally or Claire afficionado.

key refreshed.

it is a Black run establishment.

Black race issues in this area are so tame compared to what they were in Florida. But Blacks here are used for their innocence in this regard.

I was just taken back to a place where I have been held all along and didn’t know it and can’t say it even today for fear of more reprisals!

using the word “Ape” on a psych ward in Tampa and using to word “shit” on another psych ward in Clearwater when I was so out of my mind, at both times.

this was back in the early 2000s in other words, decades ago.

it is vicious how a thing like that will be held against you in the Deep South. It is the heat, somebody said.

I understand now that aliens were there to attend all along, I just needed to know it.

they have the answers for Blacks’ woes and I don’t need to!

similarly aborted babies in waste receptacles in trash dumps creating serious world wide biohazard.

Aliens know what to do about this. I don’t have to.

similarly my awkward form, my aching teeth, the belly, the weight that appears to be decreasing, all the woes that make me feel like I want b to throw up: God has a reason for this and aliens know what to do to help.

praying the Christ’s miraculous provision prayer in all these regards in whatever way they pertain to me.

also the “English little girl” back in the nineties on the Rockville psych ward in Maryland. I so wanted to be a help in Black world on this other Black influenced psych ward. At that time I did it out of pure fear but I did truly want to help.

hence the “mixed bag.”