nccotus

I have always been an outsider through my stature as a British styled dual citizenship British American national.

I never understood this in my youth, so many issues that couldn’t be met because of this fundamental misunderstanding. The election of Pope Leo has made such a difference in this regard. I couldn’t find favor even in the church before. To many difficult issues.

so, in Allentown, around 2014, spinning m y wheels as always, not a soul to turn to, I put the Billy Joel song about Allentown up on my blogsite and then steered into that curve and put up all the words, realizing that I had made a terrible mistake!

that was it for me. I was an outsider among insiders where there was no in-between for a person like me and no place else to go!!!

I was looking horrible as always for the longest time. No safety net. I fell to the bottomn of the world through two horrific suicide attempts, anything to escape the misery and pain.

I am seeing this now! “No good deed goes unpunished.” I saved a little boy’s life by reporting his parents in Easton for abuse! At a horrific downtown apartment. I had to flee after that. There were other reasons for what happened in Allentown but that was chief among them.

a decade later that is coming to the surface here today.

in my book, Cats Have Souls, (not yet published) I talk about the PA Deutsch mafia in a somewhat comical way where, once againg I am spinning my wheels as an outsider trying to know how to connect. It’s easier closer to Philly but still a place where an old culture unfavorable to me persists. And hard to reach that middle ground.