nccotus

well, a person could and often does make a million dollars from getting 1 dollar apiece from a million people.

The Lord works every trillienth of a nanosecond to the good for every living being who loves God and is called according to His purpose for them.

I used to get shooting pains in my head 3 times in a split second from noise bothers and other things that were progressively sensitized such as a strand of hair touching my face or my lips touching together or the patterns in the wrinkles in the sheets or the corners in the laundry to be folded.

so, 5 dollars for every one of them would be how much?

then, there was watching my son getting dissed, being powerless to help pand being blamed for it. Seeing him starve. Wanting so badly to take him for Boy Scouts and guitar lessons but we wouldn’t have been accepted. And he wanted a pet so badly. Letting him run me. What else was I supposed to do? He got adult rated video games and all the toys he asked for from an early age to help fill the void.

I did not know how to help him.

as I take care of the young cat we have adopted I begin to understnd more fully that even an animal will balk at being cared for by an organically disabled person such as myself with bad teeth and funny eyes. Even before this damage there was something wrong that even pets didnt like. My mother’s cat used to scratch me. The cat Daisy that I got in Massachusetts walked away from from me and went to the other caregiver.

so, Tucker bites me and scratches me. My son finally saw to get me ace bandages and fresh Neosporin. i probably have an infection from all these scratches and wounds.

I am learning how to do better at taking care of him. Because of my disability I can be a little bossy it makes people mad with me especially male beings.