nccotus

…in south Florida who prefers to remain anonymous

…has taken my case to the ropes.

I have been able to completely redefine my life as stated in my last post.

my ex husband has been so sweetly touched as we struggle to redefine the marriage and separation woes as we grapple to restore the marital separation agreement.

some issues that appeared unresolvable have gone by the wayside as I have grappled with a better understanding of his issues as the son of a Canadian soldier who saw ground combat in Germany in WWII. My life was so difficult as the daughter of a kid who grew up with war planes going overhead in England at around the same time. But I did not understand the violence suffered by an 18 year old soldier and how that played through my ex’s family life who didn’t see a lot of his father when he was young. He described his father as having “a heart of gold.” But it was obvious there were some issues there.

it was similar with our son Ian. He could be a very good father but there were issues there. Mainly,I was very ill and ultimately became non sexual. I couldnt even vacuum or do the laundry. Ian was doing it. Even with a bad eye. My ex was doing the cooking and keeping the pool clean. It had to stop.

I had acutic psychotic bug phobia and a serious lower GI issue.

I was online to Catholic.com and writing letters to the local Times about abortion. I had stopped writing about race matters because I had gotten into trouble in that regard.

a suicide attempt and a tasering finally out me and Ian here in PA where I have been scrambling to find a living and understanding my complete and total disability for ordinary work. I have taxed every avenue if strength and energy just to stay living,

in the wake of the Hopkins malpractice and Alex’s misunderstanding of our situation in that regard.

I feel like, through this attorney’s honorable and dutiful persistence in this regard I have finally been able to break through the impasse and barrier in my marriage to show my ex my true feelings of love in the face of his suspicions engendered by my family who were there to block this at every step and in every regard for reasons that are obvious if you know my history. I had to just accept this but my mother and brother are dead now.

I am praying that Alex sees this post.