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more on the statute of limitations in psych case.

I contacted a premiere law firm in Baltimore County, MD about my lawsuit against John’s Hopkins and was declined.

so, I am making my case for why the statute of limitations applies differently in psych cases as that was the reason I was declined.

today, I am grieving the loss of Cinnamon, a little orange cat who died a hero’s death in the garage where I used to smoke at Springstone Hollow in the 80’s.

I just realized that he was still living when the neighbor who mowed the grounds for my mother picked him up in a shovel and buried him near the driveway where he used to while away his time. His haunch was being eaten away by maggots as the garage was populated by flies from the garbage. It was awful. I assumed he was dead. The Lord just showed me he was still living. My mother’s friend did me the kindness of not showing me something I would not have been able to handle at the time. He buried him and I was very worried that he wasn’t buried deep enough. I took that worry with me when I left with Alex shortly afterward. Obviously Cinnamon had to go if I was leaving. He had the enmity of my mother. I don’t know how he came to lay there and die. This was a place I came to visit over the years in my mind. It was like so many other things that were left permanently in abeyance by the persistent failure of through the Hopkins malpractice.

so much grief and woe ill attended through the years.

I was deeply suicidal at that time. Desperate to find a way to end my life.

the first thing I thought when Alex and I moved into an apartment in Texas was that I would have a way to do it there.

when I had Ian I had to push it way back in my mind. I couldn’t look into that beautiful innocent face and think those thoughts.

then Alex brought it back. Told me to kill myself. Because I was begging him to kill me. Because it just hit so bad to be me. That’s the Hopkins malpractice. Psychotic bug phobia. The rest has been stated.

but today I am no longer suicidal at all. Learned to hold onto my life in the face of people who want to take it from me. Also the Hopkins malpractice.

there needs to be an end to this.