nccotus

about being left by the side of the road in a body bag.

I don’t remember it well but I am beginning to believe and understand that this really did happen.

it came after the incident when I was left in the woods for 5 days in December 2020. That made the news and I do somewhat remember.

the body bag incident had a sinister purpose. It was to cover over what was done to me on TBH 1 and 2 when I had the stupidity to return to the Allentown ER talking about aliens after being left in the snow the first time I did.

Drs Bobberin and ? Quesadilla (that was my nickname for him, I can’t remember his name) treated me in a hateful fashion. Dr Q asked me if I had thought about the afterlife. Bobberin talked to other patients about me and used words like “repulsive” and “disgusting.”

I was threatened with rape. One night, I lay n bed terrified as cops came in dragging a body bag and I kept my extremities contained so they couldn’t get a line on me.

Night after night I sat up and urinated into my incontinence briefs rather than move.

one night a heavy, black female nurse with dreds had a vacuum suction machine by the nurses station and was threatening to suction out my intestines. Or so was my fear.

two young male Philippine techs used the bathroom across from me one after another and I was terrified that the were about to enter and rape me. I sat in the quiet room and the white male lead nurse stalled outside the door.

after what had happened at the Haven hospital (being beaten and left in the snow) obviously I was very paranoid. But there was content to my fear.

then, a young g Black woman tried to get me arrested on some kind of trumped up racism charges. I got the heck out of there and my father took me back again.

my son was disgusted when I fled back to the Allentown ER again but there was no other avenue of hop over what was going on at his home and now I am here a year and a half later.

they beat me up and left me all but dead by the side of the road. Once again a dog found me. Then I was in an ICU and then the returned me to the psych ward.

it has been a horrible ordeal and I can’t imagine the Lord’s purpose in it.

I have been living here at this home for 14 months treading water. I invented the nccotus during my first stay on the TBH ward and turned it into a reality here. It has kept me living. Seems I generally talk about myself and my struggles but that is my witness.