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I all but died there. I’ve been back pedaling on that ever since.

I don’t know where I get this but I call my presence there “Pretty Lynne.”

in the very beginning I was compromised during a phone call from an old Wernersville State Hospital acquaintance who must have heard a I had returned to the area. He called my father and left him with his number and my father gave it to me so of course I called. I had been very close to this person. But had to drop the relationship when I met Alex.

he called me and the kid upstairs and his girlfriend (they had a young child) got loud and I went out to the front door area to complain and she called me a “cunt.” It felt like a dangerous moment. Friend Mark laughed at me and it didn’t feel good.

I made arrangements to see him anyway.

I wrote all of it up in my blog but later went back and deleted a lot of those posts. Wish I still had them.

I did go to see him and talked to him about the crisis in my family about 9-11 and Alex’s friendships among the Lebanese that touched me. So he told me about done things I would rather not have known about him and his girlfriend. We talked a few times after that but didn’t really have any common ground any more. It was upsetting. He wanted me to be his roommate but that would not have been worked out.

so I got into it with the couple upstairs and wound up fleeing to safety in a more secure situation at an apartment complex in Allentown. After turning them in to Children’s Services on the advice of a nun I was seeing for counseling.

I have been running from this couple and this family ever since. I forgot about it but it’s been in the works ever since. I heard that little kid calling out saying “Tus. Tus.” (In other words “Trust.”). There was no way I could follow him or know what happened. His mother was terrifying.

All I can do is pray that it all worked out for him and leave that situation in God’s hands. I was so very ill myself.

I am FINALLY in a better place. It’s been 12 years. I pray for that whole family. And also for myself and my family. For faith and healing in every regard.

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