nccotus

woke up early to the sound of distant thunder.

a clean breakfast.

after some bad moments in my arising.

had an interview first thing.

with someone who has the powers to help me.

Later in the day—just now in fact—had a medley of moments with God himself as seen in the warmth and holy fire of God Himself in the sun as I took it in out there in the intense cold of the smoking porch.

to stay living; and warm.

first I saw the crucifixion. Then two other things and I can’t even remember what they were but I went to light my cigarette and struggled to use the lighter and got such a little flame and realized that I was God’s small one again. As asked in 2011 before I knew to return here from Florida.

Here I am, Lord.

Then I saw a perfect cross. In the sun.

One of the men had made a perfect snow angel yesterday in the snow on the grass lawn around the flag mast.

went for a back x-ray yesterday and they took some additional history and maybe I can get out from under some of this pain.

the third image was a simple bright orb, the face of God.

the second I still can’t remember.