nccotus

I have been confused in this regard in recent times.

I threatened a lawsuit in my last post it 2nd to last post in this regard. I didn’t really mean it. But it did get said.

he has been so sorely taxing my spirit.

I understand that at his age (early nineties) there can be a tendency to be childish. It just irks me the wrong me the wrong way as he is wielding a heavy canon and I have to dance to the sound of it. I am a senior and a vulnerable adult also and the latter has been true down all these years that he has been lambasting me and now all of a sudden he has an excuse. It is pretty hard to take.

I am here to blow off steam in the regard.

he is generous with a large monthly stipend that keeps me up n at em.

but I am left feeling a little beaten up. No, a lot.

He and my ex team up on this. They have a mutual admiration society. Just the two of them. It’s a man thing wherein they use and take advantage of me or used to. Now it’s all at a low ebb and they’d rather just ditch me to this place and forget about me in the worst way.

so, it’s the 11th day of Christmas. The day of the 11 pipers piping. I texted that to Dad knowing that he would take it as intend. He gave me a lovely 30 extra today. It was such a blessing. The pipers represent hat when you have danced to the tune you have to pay the pipers! One of my father’s favorite sayings! Obviously I was representing that I was being accommodated for all the piping I have done for everybody in the family down the years perforce.

so, no I will not sue anyone in my own family, only Alex, in regard to the divorce; but I will demand appropriate attribution about where the money is and where it’s going. That monthly stipend from my father is a godsend and appreciated and earned for a lifetime of patience with my sister and how I was downplayed for her benefit at the worst moments of my life. I won’t risk trouble by saying more here or now. That is a piece of the iceberg. I am humble but confidently expectant that the boom will sweep everything clear for a new day.