nccotus

I have finally figured out how to talk about the catastrophic damage in the ICU in 1986 when they put a clamp on a catheter I was trying to rip out, I probably had a painful urinary tract infection. I have described it as sexual torture that lasted for 8 or more hours. And that I died for five minutes but came back again. Only to descend back into a shocking and terrifying state after about 24 lucid hours.

There was DAMAGE TO MY CENTRAL NERVOUS SYSTEM.

Those pud nerves are hard-wired to the brain for obvious reasons. And every part of our functioning. I refer to it as my “ghoul epiphany.” I know things about people that I shouldn’t know. I’m over it now. But it ate up 38 years of my life and harmed my son. Along with other things.

I didn’t know what was wrong at the time; why I couldn’t get up; 38 years ago. I was permanently and completely disabled but didn’t know how to state it. And kept waiting for things to be normal again.

bingo lightbulb!!!

a disorder of the reflexes because of OCD and a problem with startle responses and likely partial complex seizures to complicate things. That was my condition AFTER the damage in the ICU as it developed over time.

started out as the wart-mole lesion and partial complex seizures and the pud damage at age (5? Or 6?). And some other things.

the damage in the iCU and how it WASNT HANDLED or ADDRESSED at Hopkins in any way IS the sick as shit cause for the lawsuit against Hopkins for what they failed to do. After that experience, I was launched into a vortex hovering somewhere between life and death. Down in Florida.

Now I am back here in PA.