nccotus

about abortion

there are 12 faces to abortion

that is the problem we have with talking about abortion.

it was inflammatory to talk about abortion because of the initial intent back in the 60’s when the dispute was mainly about two groups: teenage girls who became pregnant out of wedlock and young women experimenting with free love. And another group moved in in this: married women who already had a few children and didn’t want any more right away but didn’t want to get their tubes tied yet but then were faced with another pregnancy. Then, inhering in this were the issues that made an argument for abortion that made it appear so heroic to fight for: cases of rape and incest; cases where the woman’s life was at risk; cases where the baby was at risk for medical reasons—“in this climate”—the last applied to me. I was having sex when I oughtnt to have been, when I was taking two class C medications, dangerous to the baby, and at a low state of life, drinking coffee and alcohol and smoking cigarettes. It would have been some kind of awful comment on society if that baby had been carried to term. I have to assume that I would have had a miscarriage. I had a sick feeling in my gut. I desperately needed to see a doctor but there was none to be found. Abortion seemed like the only alternative. I opted for an awake procedure. I got there and had cold feet. There was a final question, “Do you want to have this abortion?” I did not want to say yes. She said, “you will see a doctor” so I signed yes.” Turned out the doctor was a non English speaking abortionist who gave me a 10 second evaluation to verify that I was pregnant and then started the procedure. It felt like some kind of horrific form of rape. These needles to anesthetize the crevix were touching me in a place and in a way that nothing should. I started screaming and firing out expletives and they told me to be quiet.

afterwards I sat in the anteroom devastated and they hustled me out of there with intimidation.

This is one face of abortion; one of the worst; but probably not uncommon.

my next abortion was similarly horrendous. I opted for an asleep procedure. Almost died. They left a part of the baby in the womb. My period went sour.

then I got pregnant with Ian; carried them in tandem all his life, only finally losing some real physical part of her year on this personal care home floor in the City of Reading around last January or February.

Finally able to turn my heart, mind, and soul to him inerrantly after all these years.

it is crazy what abortion can do to the life of a mother and her other kid(s) as well as the aborted kids. Alex made me have the second abortion. I suddenly turned on her not knowing why. After rubbing her in my belly and calling her my “project.” But I was smoking cigarettes and still taking two Class C medications—harmful to the baby. It was the cigarettes smoking. I knew I couldn’t be a mother with that on board. When I got pregnant with Ian a few months later I had the smoking under control and I was off the meds. It was a go.

So, my “choice” was about the medical issues. One of the rare cases where there was a real medical reason to utilize abortion technology. Those two babies would have been horrific beings. It still hurt so hard.

it is about changing the “climate” where that could happen. “Free love” felt good for a while back in the 60’s and 70’s but it’s boring now.

I guess I can’t really comment because of my sexual injury; I’m out of the mix. But I’ve heard it said that young kids don’t want to be having sex. They’d rather just be dating. And it’s crazy what adults are doing to try to pair up with trails of romances behind them.

they used to say “keep your rosaries off our ovaries “ and that was a clarion call. But not any more. It’s not about the church it is about common sense morality. Sex makes babies. It is a powerful force in our lives and not to be taken lightly.

given “this climate,” young girls as well as young women need to be educated about abortion. We are asked to refrain from providing them with information in this regard when it’s bad enough already that we are letting them make this “choice” when they aren’t old enough to vote or even hold a drivers license.

it is an ugly situation out there for young men and women alike as well as for adult men and women who don’t know what they are doing to themselves down the road when abortion comes back to them.