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once upon a time this person was my baby sister.

she trounced me from my position as the little sister and I was supposed to woman up and take care of her without compensation for the loss of my position as the baby sister myself.

I changed her diapers for instance. When my parents went to play tennis on the weekends. And I lay in bed with her in my brother’s room in desperation eating small teaspoons of salty Marmite spread. Then I got up sometimes and went to Ellen’s house and played board games. I guess I just left her there. Claire, I mean. I don’t remember.

For a long time, all I heard from her is that she didn’t like that I played horsey with her. I did that because I thought she liked it. I had nothing better to do. She used to run around the riding ring at the barn when I was cleaning up Virginia Belle, a chestnut mare that my parents bought for me. So, I put her in her child harness and put her on a lead line and took her for walks. It seems odd to me now I think of it. At the time she seemed to enjoy it.

Recently I realized that she has mounted a campaign against me fostered by Deborah Hargreaves at New Vitae Wellness and Recovery who is guilty of criminal malpractice in this regard. Making ridiculous charges and claims against me. I understand she has also gained the services of a life coach to “recover memories.” I rarely thought of my sister as an adult except where I was forced to put her ahead of myself despite my own serious needs and illness when she was going to Smith College. I met my husband and she was permitted to run amok over this relationship. I was always so preoccupied with my own personal challenges that I never had time to think of others. Alex and I never stood a chance against her jealousy and ego needs in this regard. Anything I have or had, Claire wants; and she will do anything and everything she can to take it away from me. She learned to do this at a young age when she was given my childhood room and everything in it. That was repeated as a pattern. She moved into another room in Summit without their bothering to take my things out of the closet. My things were stowed in another room deemed as hers in the house here in PA. She also presumed ownership of my cats—Daisy and her 4 grown kittens. Then, she grabbed Alex. She inhered with the first phone call in a way that I couldn’t see at the time. I have been fighting that battle ever since. I thought it was my mother. I have forgiven my mother. Claire will need correction in this regard.