about the “louger” in my apple sauce the other night. I was meant to kill myself over that. It almost died me because of the back buckling. I was choking on mucus that was hardened up by the asystemic mucus and all the salt I took in and couldn’t cough because my back was seizing. I was up ALL NIGHT struggling to cough, unable to lay down.
I was able to sleep for a couple of hours the next morning.
they say that being kept up when you need to sleep is one of the worst forms of torture. And, I was also scared because I knew I was keeping everybody else up. The next night started up the same bust then I was finally able to sleep a bit. The pain has been awful but there has been a huge positive benefit as I come out the other side able to connect with my son understanding things I needed to know about him and things he has suffered.
I am okay now. Everything is going to be okay.
there have been other quite seriousissues in my life relating to snot that are hard to talk about and to do this here would be overkill. Maybe some other time.
nccotus 
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