nccotus

About Germantown, MD, 1995

At the Hospital I went to near there after the Hopkins malpractice, someone said to go back to the earliest place in your life you need to to find the mother within.

i have been stalled out on this all these years by the malpractice; instead, I was fighting for Ian’s safety and our lives. A desperately fragile and helpless mother and a child at risk. Both endemically and experientially.

today, I have that child in myself back and some comforts I never had before with the wart-mole off of my face and apparently a laser surgery by aliens when I was at the psych ward last year to tidy up the bad berve issue in my pud. Nothing else explains this. I woke up without any urine as if I had just been catheterized. And completely free of sensation i.e. pain and irritation in that area. This has troubled me for a long time but I see no further way to attribute what happened that night!

so, i am so freed up to be a mother now in a way I couldnt before. If he will let me.

i have the child within to help and assist in this regard.

I started learning about good and evil. I was going around saying to myself “friend or foe?” as i navigated the small town we lived in. This was not the way to do it. And it was still malpractice by Hopkins.