nccotus

I have finally found comforted with this phase of my life.

as with the fatty person.

I used to feel like I was a thin woman in a heavy persons body and how strange it was to know what it felt like to see how differently I was treated. Finally, I got used to being heavy when I topped 200 pounds. I just lost hope of ever returning to my former self.

Now, I have settled out at 170 and hope to begin to drop some weight but I am leaving it in the Lord’s hands. It is something I can’t do on my own any more. And I have seen the folly of basing morality on the goal of being thin. There are other forms of goodness. America is a land of fatties as well as thinnies. It is just how it goes here. There are reasons for my form that are medical.

likewise the wart mole.

I was formed by being this person most of my life.

I have shed that evil pain.

but I learned a lot about human nature. And the underlying organic personality disorder remains. I am the me inside now and you will find that a lot of things are the same. But with a paradigm shift to the good: out with the bad; in with the good. Out with the chaff; in with the wheat. There has been a profound healing here.