nccotus

I am or was the victim of the shocking abuse of a little girl who spoke limited British English in a family sort of like the little girl in the movie “Born Free,” about Elsa the Lion who a British family living in Africa adopted from the wild. We saw that movie for my brother’s fifth birthday at a restaurant. I played the accompaniment to the theme song on the piano for the chorus performance in grade school. I was always singled out like that in grade school.

I was born on American soil but my parents hadn’t decided to stay. They warred against American influences. It was like I was born in an English establishment in India but not belonging to India.

I read books in a completely unguided way, some by British authors like The Secret Garden and A Little Princess, others by American authors, not knowing the difference, it made me all jumbled up and confused. It was the same with popular music. I didn’t understand that some music was British and why it so appealed to me. And some music was preppie and didn’t. I was so mixed up and confused.

in the American community I was nonverbal and in the American psych community I was mocked for saying this. Because I said a lot of words. So I was mocked and abused as a schiz. Because I wasn’t.

Because I always won. And people just hated that.

so, finally, they tried to kill me.

because finally I really needed them. I saw an alien.

I turn to them in utter humility.

the Bible says to humble yourself to your neighbors.

like Trump said, it’s not America any more.

It’s like what I said when I knew it was coming from push to shove. That is a British expression I think. And I was driving from Easton the Horsham Clinic in Ambler, PA and I cried out “Lord, move Heaven and Earth to save Ian!”

then this, I saw an Alien and it was a part of this and I became the CLAW and everyone was playing with me, I was here in Reading in the Haven Pagoda Unit, Ian was here and he couldn’t save me. They raped me and left me in the woods to die.

once is sick, twice is a calamity.

Here I am today back in the same situation, recovering from the second time, waiting on a THIRD try which would be a global CATASTROPHE.

this is not America any more.

It was bad enough when it was a popularity contest. Now it is a free for all.