nccotus

it’s complex how you handle abortion.

first you have to realize that it is a death of a child like any other. For instance, a woman grieves over a miscarriage.

then, you go through a period of confusion that can last a lifetime because of the lies we are told. Then you need to realize to repent of it as a sick sin.

that is where I am at today, the anniversary of the second abortion in my marriage, the most horrible one.

and the lord has brought me to an unbelievable moment where for years I have set aside 3 days grieving over this every years for a decade and a half not knowing what to do.

so, He suggested to me the help of ALIENS in this regard and the most unbelievable thing has happened.

I was reminded of how it appeared that aliens addressed the clitoral damage when I was on the psych ward recently. There was no other explanation for something that happened in the night. A nerve was gone when I woke up and it was apparent that I had been catheterized, no urine. And I moved forward with such relief—no further irritation from that bad nerve.

recently, here, I woke up with my hair all wet after a bad haircut that left my hair all slightly uneven. I couldn’t figure out what happened with my hair being all wet. But now, I am no longer self-conscious about my hair; it appears to have been fixed. (I had cut my hair myself a year and a half ago and it was a mess and then I went to get it cut 4 months ago and it was left 2” shorter on one side. So I went to a strip mall hair place and had to fight with them to get them to fix it right. But she left it slightly fd up and uneven.)…

so, we are to trust God in the big things as the little ones.

I trusted God in the form of ALIENS for the ice epiphany in late 2020 when I was left in the snow to die and now I am similarly recovering from the banal bullshit if being left unconscious in a body bag by the side of the road. It sounds crazy but it happened. About 11 months later I am able to look back on that in a rational way and be ready to move on.

both times I was found by a barking dog.

oh how I love dogs now.

so, about the abortions.

It was always so weird about how they came one upon the other and Ian too and how they couldn’t possibly all have been born. And I always knew to “trust in the Lord’s timing.” So, also, I never got it about time travel until I began to acclimate to the lesion (“mole-wart”) being taken off my face and now I sort of understand.

so, I trusted the ALIENS about the two abortions and Ian and through the travel they went back and took away the abortions and let them be miscarriages instead. Leaving Ian to be one born child with the history of two miscarriages. And the aborted child at 13. Of which I also have repented and over which I can now finally cry.

***in other words, aliens stopped me from getting the abortions and they went naturally to being miscarriages instead, or the aliens induced miscarriages, I’m not sure.

so Ian can be cleared of the medical history that is personal and private regarding to my priorly unfit condition to be his mother.

I believe.