nccotus

I was in a sorry state over this. Consider the condition of my paperwork and dirt all over the floor at the cottage, a place that lures you in…

I just explained about Lyndack. Hopkins and Snowflake don’t need further explaining. The last one, “AIFAMieDIY (sign of the fish) (?) I can’t explain.

SLG (also known to me as SLUG) and Georgia have been a constant harm to me all of my days since I met them. Georgia came into my life at about the same time as Lyndack. I met her the same way (at the state hospital in the wake of the debacle because of Patsy S. and director Jim M.). I tried to put a use move on Georgian to help me with this, not realizing the parts she had over me to see it, she turned it around on me and has been doing it to me ever since. That’s for about 35 years. That’s everywhere I went nationwide. She was also a coast to coast traveler. This has been so horrible. I ran into her wherever I went.

I am content to write off SLG in a positive way as a co-“Daughter of the Revolution” (hi-tech, in other words). She knew who she was but was very insecure. I was secure in myself as a person but didn’t really know who I was. I held onto her over the years. As a person who was a serious part of my formation in a way that I didn’t appreciate at the time. Then it got bad. But I am willing to release this now, understanding that we each had our issues and she couldn’t possibly understand what happened that Thanksgiving in ‘85 when I knew not to go to SF and my mother forced me to go for some sick reason I still do not see. I panicked and lost my mind over that. It landed me at the state hospital. Just so you know. SLUG. You have done it to me so many times. You know who you are but you do not know what you are doing. You hide behind your family. You use MY family to harm me for your ego issues when I am struggling for my life.

I have learned to scream and to get in a bitch fight. I went military and lost the poetess in me.

but I am beginning to feel happy.