nccotus

My religious formation came at a cost.

after the state hospital, I was pursued by a religious stalker who I call Lyndack.

This was in 1988 and 1989.

she finally jumped out of me 15 minutes ago, for good.

she was a dirty minded, sick, silly, immature little person who drew me into her world of infantile faith. It was a sick feeling when I was led to her. But I was so desperate for Christian knowledge, which she did possess. For instance, I didn’t really even understand that Christmas was about Jesus. I learned about the basics of faith and about the different churches and beliefs, we went to fast food restaurants and talked over lunch. And, occasionally, her church, and once, a function we went to with her boyfriend and his friend where we watched a movie about one world and the second coming. It was exciting and strange. When I met Alex I took him to meet her. He was shocked that I knew this person and upset. She was shocked and upset because she knew we were having sex.

A few years later, I called on her for help with the abortions and she was able to lead me to a Christian post-traumatic abortion counselor who prayed over me. She stayed with me in my mind for a while and led me to the “New Believers Bible,” an NLT version (New Living Translation). I found it so beautiful. It came with a reading plan. I read it slowly once a day over six years, a few paragraphs or chapters at a time.

Lynda stayed with me in my mind. There was something errant about my faith in this regard. Some of it doesn’t bear telling. But I finally figured it out at the Haven Tower Unit in 2021. I needed to redefine my faith life from some of the bad influences in this regard. I explained this to my father, thinking that he would appreciate this. Actually I don’t think he even cared. After all his grumblings.

so, it is finally out. Yes, I was earnestly seeking Jesus and I did have God in an OT way through Judaism by matrilineal descent which was a block against my Christian formation, I finally met with NT Christ a Jesus HERE, a month or so ago and will never be the same. He is the way, and the truth, and the life. Nothing else compares.

I see myself how the silliness was a help to me in this regard—it helped to ease the transition out of Judaism to Christianity: “the Lord works every iota of a nanosecond together for the good…”

But ai do need ti thoroughly weed out Lyndack at this time.

I have heard it said that there is a special place for a converted Jew in the Catholic Church.

(Lyndack deemed the Catholic Church a cult!)

Also, a special chemistry between Jews and Irish Catholics (which I also am).