nccotus

like my sister in Somerville, MA in ‘85. My sister in Claverly Hall, Harvard College in late ‘82. My sister in a video clip that came to my mind around 2021 or 2022 when I was extraordinarily preoccupied with a positive work to help my son and myself and did not have the time or leeway to attend. It was about a terrible rape and I did not care to attend and had no way to lose it so I just put it aside. I was able to do so today. Lose it. I don’t know where it came from or how or why. It endangered me to go anywhere near it in any way. It has finally gone out of me and I am moving back towards peace in my soul after these several horrendous years.

I always knew my sister had issues but I didn’t realize how seriously they focused on me.

I never let go of the tiny little tot that she was when I was a child. It wasn’t criminal but I do understand that it perplexed her for me to do this. I guess it was my response to losing my status as the baby in the family. I so resented how this WAS NOT handled in any way shape or form. My brother called her a spoiled brat. Probably for similar reasons. Then she went to Smith College and I became ill and they bonded. I see now how she was constantly advocating against me and I DO NOT know why.

Obviously, she has been doing so recently. It seems to be the meaning of her life.

She has attacked me through my relationship with my husband and through my sacred bond of motherhood in the sickest and most serious way. In a way that I didn’t see the extent of until recently. I am so sick at heart.

she seems not to be able to tolerate that I get any attention at all. She attests that I am not really part of the family.

a family member cannot really be deemed a stalker but it is like that. I see her in my mind and I am scared of her.

There will be a tragic end to this sorry tale.