nccotus

my father has two significant causes of grief today.

first, Judith is identified as living and staying with relatives in BC and not wanting to return to the States.

Second, it’s all out about aborted Arthur Robyn and he doesn’t know where to look.

My issue is that I am a crippled and needy being beholden to my son and desperate for a good relationship with him but beholden to other family members who are insanely abusive.

My father has always been a deceitful being. He had an aristocratic wife with serious issues and was forced to ditch a delightful technical career for a management position with higher pay to support her needs for position in society. He grew up the son of a dock laborer and got his education in England on a scholarship. He loved her but couldn’t help being abusive in his efforts to control her. My brother and I took the brunt of this. I don’t really know about my sister other than that I wasn’t the baby of the family any more.

Then, I had my own child. And she was in the way.

That’s about where it’s been ever since.

Judith was a very jealous being and taught Claire to be the same. Jealousy is sin and not an appropriate motivation or justification.