nccotus

Near death situations lead to brain damage oh so many times over. So do psych hospitals in this regard.

for instance, most recently, I was beaten half to death outside a psych ward and left to die on a body bag by the side of the road outside the hospital.

once again, I was found by a man and his dog. I was in the ICU for 3 weeks. This is all to the best of my knowledge.

I was returned to the psych ward to battle for my life. Now I am here. Finally figuring out my situation. Nobody expected me to recover. But I have. Now it is a nightmare for everybody else instead of me. But now, there is more brain damage. I used to be able to think so good. My intellect was still well. I was such an analytical powerhouse in my youth. I am trying to spin those wheels a little. And wondering what comes next. My heart, mind, body, and soul have improved in so many ways but I have been going by rote for a lot of things.

Meanwhile, my son made a sympathetic suicide attempt and I was all over the place in my mind looking for him all over my father’s place out in the country and in Easton and in Allentown. It was absolutely terrifying. I had news at time from my father. After a while, I saw him. But we have had trouble reconnecting.

praying for a good Mother’s Day.