nccotus

email to my son last night

The tasering is fnally off of me and I see how it was why I was so outrageously hard and violent when I came here to PA in 2012.  I can see how that influenced those horrific moments at LVH that I was too scared to revisit even in my mind.  That, plus the shock treatments they gave me in fla after the Klonopin overdose in 2009; I had feelings of electric shocks running through my whole body when I laid down at night here in PA; before the Lamictal od In 2016 .  Then, It stopped.

But then, there was the stuff that CAUSED the Klonopin od and the tasering.  Still, that is now easily handled compared to all this that had to happen to free me from the violent spirit created by those two LITERAL shocks.

I am SO SORRY for how this has affected you, Ian.  I can only pray that as the Lord sweeps everything clear for me He does something similar and related for you.

I hope that the rest of your night is good and that you have a good day tomorrow.

I Love you!

Your Mother

ian took me to get a haircut yesterday. It was the first professional haircut in 2 years. I didn’t realize how frantic and desperate I was becoming in this regard.