nccotus

my current brain problem started with a “gestalt” problem that started when I was taking Tegretol (an anti-seizure medication–given to me for mood but it helped with an underlying seizure problem) and Haldol (an “old” anti-psychotic medication) in the late ’80’s; 2 years after the clamped catheter incident in the ICU in West Reading.

I don’t really know anything about gestalt theory but I know it had to do with getting a “total image” and at that time, in the late ’80’s, I was having trouble with this in such a painful way. The least little thing triggered a startle response that could send me spinning for 2 weeks, struggling to put the picture back together.

Then I met Alex in late 1990; he had a use for me just as I was. I see now that EVERYTHING happened exactly as he needed it to. OBVIOUSLY, I had trouble getting a “gestalt” of him! I have been in dire straits ever since. Out of the frying pan and into the fire.

Not really knowing what was going on.

Here I am today waiting for a release. After all these years.