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So, when my mother died in January of 2020, we were all at a loss.

I spoke to my sister about laying “planks” ahead over the muddy waters in a darkness towards an unknown future.

So, here I am today, in the future, finally contented.

About a week ago the Lord opened up the sky to me and showed me Eternity. It was so beautiful. I knew that he was preparing me for Heaven, a Place I never dared to go before in my mind. I was like Huck Finn. I was afraid I wouldn’t like it there! (or was it Tom Sawyer?) Recently that has all changed.

So, the Lord has been laying out planks for me from this future to the next. The recent past has been so CRAZY. Since my mother’s death (and my brother’s). I am hoping for a safe and peaceful retirement.

I have finally been understanding about living in the present day vs. planning for the future vs, God’s personal promises. He lays out a plank; and sometimes modifies it. He won’t break a promise but he may alter it. And, he could take our lives at any time through accident or injury or mslfeasance such as murder. Even when he had promised that I would die peacefully in my sleep. That is the nature of murder and other sin. It flies in the face of God’s plan. God can do anything He wants. But He does have a certain character towards us and there are things He does not do. He does not generally stop us fom sin. That’s on us. He turns it to the good. That does not mean that it was good what we did. And we did not make it better, He did. It happens through our repentance and atonement. Sometimes years later. I am finally learning to do it right away. It took me until age 62 to thoroughly learn this painful lesson. The “wart-mole person” that I was, just couldn’t connect. Now, I am in there making repentance and atonement for the evil I did as the wart-mole person. For 59 1/2 years. I couldn’t help it. But in such a case, you do still need to repent and atone. That’s in one of the books of Moses.

I’ve been in a long, slow metamorphosis since June, 2021 in this regard, since that evil little piece of flesh came off of my face.

I wish my mother could see me.