nccotus

when I was in my “situation” at home and wanting to join the military but slated for Harvard, I was smoking 3 packs a day after graduating from a boarding school where smoking was illegal and thereby strictly limited.

I was desperate to control the smoking but couldn’t.

So, I got the roommate questionnaire and the question regarding smoking read like this: “Do you prefer smoking or non-smoking roommates?”

So, I thought about that a little and realized that I didn’t like the smoker in me and wanted to quit. So, I opted for non-smoking roommates and then forgot about it. And didn’t quit!

So, I had trouble with 3 pack a day smoking on and off for the rest of my life. For 4 years, when I was very ill, I was smoking FOUR PACKS A DAY. With ice water. It was like a heroine addiction.

My son had to go away to school. I had hopeless constipation and was sleeping 2 hours on and 2 hours off through the night and day, couldn’t keep appointments. After a horrible psych hospitalization when I went 3 weeks without sleep. It was all I could do to drop my son off at school in the morning wnd pick him up at the end of the day (when he switched from boarding to day student.) I had the local catholic Christian radio station in the car.

So, recently, I got the smoking under control when my father finally permitted me to smoke indoors again.

At that time, the Lord came to me (God, that is, as opposed to Jesus, Whom I didn’t have in that way at that time) and said to me that my smoking was “unguent and appealing” to Him.

So, smoking is more sensitive for some than for others; like alcohol. Obviously my case was somewhat unusual.

tbc…