nccotus

This is a true miracle.

I was all but dead. Paralyzed for 38 years with an interior illness pertaining to the awful incident from an overdose in 1986. The impact developed over time into many forms, most recently I called it my “OCD sciatica.” weird jerky spasms as my body automatically tried to control and cover over shooting pains as programmed through inherent OCD impacting nervous and muscular injuries.

One of the problems was rhat I could be easily “boarded” illegally, from within,or by others, nearby, or in my head, or by Satan. Terrified that I could be arrested or whisked away to a psych ward at any moment.

The pressure in public places was sometimes atrocious. THe physical stress of this condition, the muscular tension was so dire.

It had become difficult to discern whether I was even really living.

Over the last few months I have been taking Luvox, an antidepressant that works on OCD; and I have seen fantastic results.

In the last few days, I have seen my natural reflexes restoring.

It just got so bad that the Lord had to step in.

I met with a real live angel.

Now, my parts are coming back together. i was just so afraid of my sexual responses because of the injury by the catheter in ’86 that I was afraid to relax in public. Those parts just aren’t there any more. They were taken out at the hospital in a way that I do not know, for instance, I woke up one morning feeling as if I had been catheterized, there was no urine. I could only assume it wae aliens. THis would be my third encounter with such. The nccotus does acknowledge the presence of aliens coming to earth for this and other reasons.

We also adore Pope Francis for his up-to-date attitudes.

There is hope for the world we live in through the restoration of the Catholic Church from how it has been bullied and abused. If I can be restored, almost anybody can.

Still, every night, before I go to sleep, I pray the Hail Holy Queen prayer, which reminds me that this world is a vale of suffering. I remember the evil times reflected in the Old Testament. The tradition of Catholic prayer is so beautiful and lovely.

I have not been able to attend Catholic mass on Sundays even though I was baptised, because of my sexuality issues. I make people feel uncomfortable, especially young families with children. It is very sad for me. I have started saying the remote sacrament prayer every Sunday. Somehow this will be resolved.